I'm Pregnant!

Today I found out that I’m pregnant. Matthew and I decided to quit using birth control a little while back so I’ve been off the pill since June 15^th. Realistically we figured it would take us a while to get pregnant but we were at a point in our lives where we were ready when it happened.

I only took the test because I missed my period. Something I kind of expected might happen as a result of coming off of the pill. I was at the dentist and they asked me if I might be pregnant and I said no but the more I thought about it, the more pregnancy seemed like a possibility.
I skipped a little time out of work to run home and take the test in the middle of the day when no one would be home. If I became emotional over the result, one way or the other, I didn’t want anyone to see.

I had been avoiding peeing all morning so that I could make sure I could take the test. I went in the bathroom, took the test, and set it aside knowing that you’re supposed to wait three minutes to read the result. Any time I take a pregnancy test I also turn it face down so I’m not tempted to peek and ruin the potential surprise (or in college, the potential panic). After a few minutes of distracting myself on my iPod, it was time to turn it over.

There it was. Faint, but unmistakably there. Oh my God. Really? Take another one! Wait; I don’t have to pee anymore. It’ll have to wait.

I headed back to work in a bit of a daze and wonder at what I’ve just seen. I think skepticism was the overriding feeling at the moment.

That afternoon I decided to take another test to try and quiet the little voice in my head telling me that it’s not real. That is was just a false positive. Again, that faint little line is there declaring that the signal may not be strong yet, but it is most definitely there.

That night I can’t sleep. Matthew is out of town on business and won’t be home until tomorrow but I am bursting with information now. I need to talk but I’m not going to pass this news over the phone. I want to see his face. So instead I suffer through hours of tossing, turning, and over-thinking.

It’s at least 2:30 AM before I drift off to sleep.